Losing My Queen (mother)

I have been going through a lot since I have loss my Queen. She was everything to me and for the ones of you that been following me.You all know that she was my biggest supporter. I have been doing this with her and she made sure i stayed on track. When she died I felt like I wanted to die to then I had to think about God had blessed me with my baby so I had to do what best for her and I. Its been over a year and I am still struggling but its getting better day by day. I just stay prayed up and talk with her and God and they are bringing me through. So I am back on the journey not half assing it either I'm back now full force. I was depressed and stress but i know she would not want me to be going through that. So I will not beat myself up anymore.