Thursday, April 29, 2010

WHY?

WHY????? THAT WAS WHAT I ASKED MYSELF ON A DAILY BASIS. I WANTED TO KNOW WHY DID I ALLOW MYSELF TO GET LIKE THIS. I COULD NOT UNDERSTAND WHY THIS HAPPEN TO ME. IT WAS LIKE ONE DAY I WAS LIVING A REGULAR LIFE AND THE NEXT DAY IT WAS ALL GONE. I CAN REMEMBER IT LIKE YESTERDAY,I WAS WORKING AT LITTLE ONES ACADEMY. I HAD JUST STARTED WALKING AT THE LOCAL PARK TRYING TO LOSE WEIGHT. I HAD BEEN WALKING THERE ABOUT A MONTH WHEN I NOTICE THAT MY LEG WAS GETTING A LITTLE BIGGER. WHEN I FIRST SEEN IT I WAS THINKING THAT IT WAS ONLY FAT BECAUSE I AM A BIG GIRL. PLUS I HAVE NOTICE MANY OVERWEIGHT PEOPLE WITH EXTRA FAT IN THAT AREA OF THEIR LEG. SO ONE DAY WHEN I GOT HOME FROM WORK I CALLED MY MOM AND TOLD HER THAT SOMETHING WAS GOING ON WITH MY LEG. SO WE SCHEDULED AN APPOINTMENT WITH A DOCTOR AND THEY SAID THAT IT WAS A TUMOR.FROM THERE I HAD TO GO SEE A PALSTIC SURGEON THEN THEY WAS TALKING ABOUT ME AND MY MOM OVER HEARD IT AND WE LEFT AFTER SHE TOLD THEM HOW SHE FELT. SO THE NEXT WEEK A WENT OVER TO ST. MARYS WELLNESS AND ONE OF THE KIDS MOM FROM MY CLASS SEEM ME AND SHE MENTION THAT SHE HAD SEEN SOMETHING LIKE THAT AT A CONFERENCE THAT SHE HAD BEEN TO. SO SHE WROTE THE NAME DOWN ONCE I LEFT THERE I WENT TO LIBRRY TO LOOK UP WHAT SHE HAD TOLD ME. ONCE I LOOKED IT OVER AND CONTACTED A DOCTOR IN ATLANTA THAT DIAGNOSISED ME WITH LYMPHEDEMA. SO I STARTED TREATMENNT FOR IT IN DECATUR FOR AWHILE THEN AFTER A WHILE I HAD TO DISCONTINUE GOING BECAUSE MY MOM AND SISTER HAD TO WORK AND WASNT ABLE TO TAKE ME 4 DAYS A WEEK.SO I START TAKING MYSELF THEN IT ALL STOP BECAUSE I COULD NOT DRIVE WITH MY LEGS WRAPPED UP. SO OVER THE YEARS IT GOT BIGGER AND BIGGER. I WAS TOLD TO LOSE WEIGHT AND THAT WILL HELP REDUCE THE SIZE OF MY LEGS ALOT. I AM WAITING UNITL I GET DOWN ENOUGH SO I CAN GO SOMEWHERE AND GET TREATMENT DONE ON MY LEGS SO I CAN LIVE A NORMAL LIFE. I AM SO TIRED OF BEING TRAPPED IN THIS HOUSE NOT LIVING. THERE IS SO MUCH THAT I DIDNT GET TO DO THAT I NEED TO DO. I DIDNT MAKE IT TO MY 10 YEAR CLASS REUNION. I JUST WANT TO GET OUT AND HAVE FUN LIKE I NEEDED TO. I JUST FEEL SO ROBBED OF MY YOUTH. I WANT TO TRAVEL AND SEE THE WORLD. I WANT TO GRADUATE FROM COLLEGE AND ACTUALLY WALK THE STAGE. I USE TO SIT AND CRY ABOUT MY SITUATION. I WOULD NEVER LET MY FAMILY KNOW HOW I WAS REALLY FEELING UNTIL LAST YEAR FINALLY TOLD MY MOM HOW I HAD BEEN FEELING. I AM SO FOCUSED AND HAVE MADE UP MY MIND THAT THIS IS LIVE OR DIE.I MUST LIVE BECAUSE I HAVE SO MUCH I NEED TO DO LIKE HELPING MYSELF SO I CAN HELP OTHERS. I DO NOT WANT ANYONE TO GO THROUGH WHAT I HAVE BEEN GOING THROUGH. 7 WEEKS AGO I WAS IN PAIN DAILY. I HAVE NO PAIN MEDICINE. SINCE I LOST SOME WEIGHT I DO NOT BE IN SO MUCH PAIN. THIS WEEK HAVE BEEN A LITTLE BAD BECAUSE IM IN PAIN BUT I WILL GET THROUGH IT. ITS BAD WHEN YOU HATE TO WAKE UP IN THE MORNING BECAUSE YOU KNOW THAT YOU WILL BE IN PAIN.THAT WAS THE OLD ME THE NEW ME GET UP AND GET MY DAY STARTED WITH A SMILE ON MY FACE. I LOVE WHO I AM BECOMING IM NOW HAPPY ITS BEEN A LONG TIME..

Wednesday, April 28, 2010

686

I LOVE THE WAY I FEEL I LOSS 4 MORE LBS THIS WEEK. I WAS KINDS OF UPSET AT THE BEGINNING BECAUSE I ONLY LOST 4LBS. I WILL BE GOING CUTTING THE SOUPS OUT WHEN MY NEW SHIPMENT COME. AS I LOOK BACK OVER THE LAST 6 WEEKS I SEE THE DIFFERENCE IN MYSELF. YOU HAVE TO BE VERY DETERMINE TO CHANGE TO TAKE THIS STEP. I WENT ON WWW.DOCTOROZ.COM AND I FOUND OUT THE MY BMI IS 104 (OMG) AND AND MY AGE WAS 42 YEARS OLD. OMG!!!!! THAT MADE ME MORE DETERMINE TO WORK ON THIS BECAUSE THAT MADE ME 10 YEARS OLDER THAN I AM.

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

MY TO DO LIST

-GO BACK TO CHURCH
-GET OUT THE HOUSE
-DRIVE
- MOVE MORE (FEEL GOOD MOVING MORE DAILY)
-HELP MOM AND SISTER
-BE 180-200LBS(LONG TERM)-----------LOSE THAT 547+ POUNDS
-REDUCE LYMPHEDEMA (LEGS GOING DOWN WITH WEIGHT)
-GO SHOPPING
-TRAVEL
-GO FOR A WALK OUTSIDE
-GO TO SALON
-SHARE STORY ( SINCE MARCH 24, 2010)
-GET SPONSORED BY MEDIFAST (JUNE 5,2010)
-WALK WITHOUT WALKER
-GO TO MOVIES
-GO TO NEW YORK
-ATTEND MY NEXT GRADUATION
-VISIT FAMILY AND FRIENDS
-WALK IN THE PARK
-GO SWIMMING
-COOK FOR MYSELF
-TAKE CARE OF MYSELF
-GO BACK TO WORK
-ATTEND SCHOOL ON CAMPUS
-GO ON A DATE
-GO ON A ROAD TRIP WITH MOM AND SISTER
-START HANGING OUT WITH NEW FRIENDS THAT IM MEETING
-WHERE PANTS AGAIN
-TAKE A SHOWER
-GO INTO BATHROOM WITHOUT BEING AFRAID OF FALLING
-HELP MOM IN YARD
-MEET NEW PEOPLE
-GET A MANICURE AND PEDICURE
-START ORGANIZATION(THAT WILL HELP OTHERS)
-GO BACK TO THE BEACH
-DO THINGS WITH MY SISTER(GIRLS NIGHT)
-TAKE A FAMILY PICTURE
-ATTEND NEICE AND NEPHEW GRADUATION
-GO BOWLING
-GO DANCING (I ALWAYS LOVED DOING THIS WAS I WAS ABLE)
-START BACK DOING HAIR
-HELP OTHERS ON THIS JOURNEY WITH ME

690

I AM DOWN 2 MORE LBS THIS WEEK. THAT IS GREAT ALSO.. I KNOW I DIDNT GET ALL MY WATER IN THIS WEEK. FOR NOW ON YOU CAN JUST CALL ME A FISH(LOL) I WILL BE GETTING IN ALL MY WATER. I ALREADY FEEL SO GOOD AND I KNOW IT WILL ONLY GET BETTER. I AM ABLE TO MOVE MORE AND SITTING IN THE DEN WITH MY SISTER AND MOM WATCHING TV GOING OUTSIDE AND EVEN JUST WALKING THROUGH MY HOUSE MORE. I NO LONGER JUST SIT IN MY ROOM ALL DAY LONG. WHAT A WONDERFUL FEELING THAT IS IM CHANGING AND IT FEEL SO GOOD. I WAKE UP EVERY MORNING LISTENING TO THE SURVIVOR SONG BY DESTINY'S CHILD. IT KEEPS ME GOING AND GIVES ME SO MUCH MOTIVATION I NEED TO GET GOING. I AM SO GLAD THAT I STARTED THIS MEDIFAST PROGRAM BECAUSE IT IS REALLY SAVING MY LIFE. I WAS TOLD BY MY DOCTOR TO HAVE THE GASTRIC SURGERY.I WAS AGAINST IT BECAUSE I WANTED TO DO IT MYSELF ANOTHER WAY. YEARS LATER I FOUND MEDIFAST. THE NEW LAWONDA IS ON A PROGRAM THAT I AM NEVER HUNGRY ON AND IM DETERMINED TO STICK TO THIS BECAUSE RIGHT NOW THIS IS LIVE OR DIE.. I NEED TO LIVE SO ITS NOT CHEATING AND QUITTING ON THIS PLAN. I HAVE NOT FELT THIS GOOD IN YEARS. I NO LONGER WAKE UP WITH PAIN IN MY LEGS. I NO LONGER HAVE TO LAY IN THE BED 30MIN TO AN HOUR AFTER I WAKE UP JUST SO MY LEGS WANT BE KILLING ME WITH PAIN.I LOVE THIS FEELING AND I AM WAITING FOR THE NEXT STAGE OF THIS..THE WEEK TO COME WILL BE WATER WATER WATER WATER WATER..

Tuesday, April 13, 2010

692

OMG!!!! I LOSS ANOTHER 6 LBS IN WEEK 4.. I HAVE BEEN ON THIS PROGRAM FOR A MONTH AND I HAVE LOSS OVER 32 LBS IN A MONTH. I FEEL SO DANG GOOD RIGHT NOW. MY HARD WORK IS PAYING OFF AND I KNOW THAT IT WILL ONLY GET BETTER FROM THIS DAY FORWARD. I LOVE THE WAY I FEEL. I ENJOY WAKING UP WITH OUT BEING IN SO MUCH PAIN. A MONTH AGO I WOULD LAY IN BED HATING TO GET UP BECAUSE I DID NOT WANT TO FEEL THE PAIN THAT WOULD BE IN MY LEGS ONE I HIT THE FLOOR. NOW I LOOK FORWARD TO GETTING UP AND MOVING AROUND. I AM TAKING SMALL STEPS TO GET TO WHERE I NEED TO BE.

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I HAVE A LOT OF GOOD FEEN BACK FROM ME STARTING THIS JOURNEY AND I ONCE AGAIN WANT O THANKS YOU ALL FOR YOUR SUPPORT. I ALSO WILL LIKE TO SAY THANKS TO THE ONES THAT HAVE NEGATIVE THINGS TO SAY ABOUT WHAT I AM DOING. I KNOW THAT YOU ARE WAITING ON ME TO FAIL BUT IT WILL NOT HAPPEN.I LOVE THIS FEELING AND IT WILL GET BETTER.

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

WATER, WATER , WATER

WATER IS VERY IMPORTANT FOR OUR BODY. IT HELPS YOUR BODY TO FUNCTIONS RIGHT. I WAS ONLY DRINKING 64OZ. OF WATER A DAY, IM ABOUT TO BOOST THAT UP TO 128 OZ. I WILL TRY TO WORK MY WAY UPTO 192 OZ. WHEN YOU ARE AIMING FOR WEIGHT LOSS DRINK 1 OR 2 GLASSES OF WATER BEFORE YOU EAT IT WILL CUT DOWN ON THE FOOD THAT YOU CONSUME. THE WATER FILLS ME UP.I DRINK WATER BEFORE I EAT AND WHILE IM EATING AND IT HELPS ALOT. WE ARE ALLOWED TO HAVE DIET SODAS ON THE MEDIFAST PLAN BUT I JUST STICK WITH WATER BECAUSE I KNOW ITS BETTER FOR ME. YOU CAN NOT GO WRONG WITH WATER.



WHAT IT DO?
- HELPS HORMONES FUNCTION
-BOOST METABOLISM
-DECREASE APPETITE
-HELPS YOUR LIVER FUNCTIONS
-INCREASE ENERGY BY BURNING FAT
- STOP DEHYDRATION
-DECREASE FLUID BUILDUP
- HELPS THE SKIN
- AIDES IN WEIGHT LOSS

WATER IS A NATURAL HEALER FOR THE BODY. IT KEEPS YOUR HAIR, NAILS, SKIN AND BONES FROM GETTING BRITTLE. ONCE AGAIN DRINK PLEANTY OF WATER IT HELPS YOUR BODY TO FUNCTION BETTER. YOU IF YOUR LOVE YOURSELF LOVE TO DRINK WATER!!!!!

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698

OMG!!!!!! IM UNDER 700LBS AND I WILL NEVER BE OVER IT AGAIN. I FEEL SO GOOD.. I ACCOMPISHED MY FIRST GOAL GETTING UNDER 700LBS. IT FEEL SO GOOD TO SEE THAT ALL MY HARD WORK IS PAYING OFF. I HAVE BEEN STICKING TO MY 5 AND 1 PLAN. I AM NEVER HUNGRY AND FULL OF ENERGY. THIS IS A FEELING THAT I HAVE NOT FELT IN A LONG TIME. I STAY TO THE PLAN WITH THE 64OZ. OF WATER OR MORE DAILY. I DO 5 SHAKES AND 1 LEAN AND GREEN. I AM WAITING ON MY SOUPS, BARS AND SNACKS TO COME.WHEN I FIRST STARTED I ONLY ORDERED THE STRAWBERRY CREME SHAKES. THEY ARE GOOD BUT I NEED A VARIETY OF MEALS SO I ORDERED ME SOME DIFFERENT ONES THIS TIME. I LOVE THIS PROGRAM AND IT IS SAVING MY LIFE. THIS IS THE BEST DECISION I HAVE EVER MADE. IM LOOKING FORWARD TO WEEK 4 I GOAL IS TO LOSE 5LBS. YOU SHOULD ALWAYS HAVE REALISTIC GOALS SO YOU WILL HAVE A CHANCE OF ACCOMPLISHING THEM.I WOULD LIKE TO THANKS EVERYONE THAT IS SUPPORTING ME ON THIS JOURNEY.. ALL OF YOU KEEP ME MOTIVATED!!!!!

Monday, April 5, 2010

NEW ME CONTRACT

I, LaWonda Cooper, agree to commit myself to taking the following steps to improving myself physically, menatlly and spiritually so I can increase my chances for weight loss success:

I will daily:
1. Have my 5 medifast meals and my 1 lean & green meal.
2. I will exercise daily.
3. I will drink my 64oz of water or more.
4. Keep a record of my progress.


I will love myself enough not allow any slip ups to happen. I will find positive ways to comfort myself when I am going through things. When i am having problems i will do one of the follows:
1.Read the bible.
2.Contact a family member, friend or support buddy.
3.Contact my health coach.
4.Exercise
5. Write what I am going through down.


I will no longer put others wants and needs before my own. I will forever be first in myself.I will not let what other do are eat keep me from doing what I know is right. This is life or death for me!! I will stick to this plan because I need to live. I will do things that are pleasing to me.


I will be in charge of my own decisions and behavior to becoming a healthy happier woman. I will ask myself what’s most important to me messing up on plan or living? At that moment I will make my decision that I am more important than anything could ever eat or do off plan.

I will surround myself with positive people that will support me on this journey. I will have positive thoughts about myself and love me for who I am. I will have not and will not let what others have to say keep me from doing what is best for me. I will keep a journal of all that I do so I can look over what I'm doing.

Thanks stay safe and be blessed!!!!!!

Saturday, April 3, 2010

I'm a Survivor

THIS SINGS IS WHAT I START MY DAY WITH....I LOVE THIS SONG BY DESTINY'S CHILD





NEVER LOSE FAITH

WHEN I WAS COMING UP MY QUEEN(MOM) WOULD ALWAYS TELL ME, "WONDA, YOU ARE MY PHENOMENAL WOMAN". I WOULD JUST SAY OK MY QUEEN.. I WASN'T REALLY UNDERSTANDING WHY SHE WAS SAYING THAT TO ME. NOW I TAKE THIS FROM WHAT SHE WAS SAYING IS.. THAT I AM A EXCEPTIONAL WOMAN. I AM A 32 YEARS OF AGE WOMAN THAT HAVE BEEN ROBBED OF MY LIFE FOR LAST COUPLE OF YEARS. I STAY IN THE HOUSE 24HOURS A DAY WITH NO ONE TO TALK TO OR KNOW WHATS REALLY GOING ON OUTSIDE THESE 4 WALLS. GUESS WHAT? DEALING WITH ALL THAT DIDN'T BEAT ME DOWN I STILL HAVE MY SANITY. WOW!! I HAVE SOME PEOPLE THAT TELL ME THAT THEY COULD NOT HANDLE THIS THE WAY I HAVE. I THINK TO MYSELF YOU MUST NOT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE MOST HIGH. I KNOW WHEN PEOPLE COME AROUND THEY EXPECT FOR ME TO BE ALL DEPRESSED AND READY TO GIVE UP ON LIFE; SEE THAT'S WHAT THEY THINK BECAUSE OF WHAT I'M DEALING WITH(MORBID OBESITY AND LYMPH EDEMA). LOOK BEING DEPRESSED IS NOT IN MY SPIRIT! I HAVE FAITH IN THE MOST HIGH AND WHAT HE CAN DO AND WILL DO FOR ME. I KNOW THAT GOD HAVE AND WILL CONTINUE TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF ME SO WHY GET DEPRESSED AND GIVE UP. I KNOW THAT WHEN PEOPLE FIRST MEET ME THEY ARE SHOCKED AND ONCE THEY LEAVE I KNOW THEY ARE THINKING SHE IS NOTHING LIKE WHO I THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE SHE IS MORE. THIS IS WHERE ME BEING THAT PHENOMENAL WOMAN COMES INTO PLAY. I AM AN EXCEPTIONAL WOMAN BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I'M GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS WITHOUT THE HELP OF ANY DOCTORS I NEVER LOST HOPE. I KNOW THAT AS LONG AS I HAVE GOD IN MY LIFE WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME. HE WILL BE THERE NO MATTER WHAT I CAN COUNT ON HIM. A FEW YEARS AGO WHEN ALL THIS START REALLY TAKING CONTROL OF MY LIFE I HAD MANY FRIENDS SO I THOUGHT. AS TIME WENT BY THOSE SO CALLED FRIENDS DISAPPEARED!!! I WAS THINKING WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON I BEEN KNOWING THESE PEOPLE SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL OR EVEN BEFORE THAT. SO ONE DAY I WAS GOING THROUGH SOMETHINGS DEALING WITH LYMPH EDEMA. I PICKED UP MY PHONE TO CALL A FRIEND AND REALIZED I HAD NO ONE TO CALL. YES, ITS TRUE THEY ALL TURNED THEIR BACKS ON ME ONCE I GOT DOWN.. I'M NOT GOING TO LIE IT DID HURT AT FIRST THEN I CALLED ON MY TRUE FRIEND THAT WILL NEVER LEAVE MY SIDE AND HE WAS RIGHT THERE. I TOLD MY QUEEN(MOM) THAT ITS GOOD TO KNOW THAT THEY WERE NEVER MY FRIENDS THEY WAS JUST PRETENDERS. AS I GOT OLDER I GOT WISER TO ALL THAT.. PEOPLE ASKED ME LAWONDA HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THOSE PEOPLE THAT TURN THEIR BACK ON YOU DURING THIS I SAID I STILL LOVE THEM. I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT THROUGH IT ALL I'M STILL STANDING. SO LIKE THE SONG BY MONICA SAYS" WHATEVER DON'T KILL YOU MAKE YOU STRONGER".(LOL)

PHENOMENAL WOMAN

I LOVE THIS AND I JUST HAD TO POST IT

Phenomenal Woman
Pretty women wonder where my secret lies.
I'm not cute or built to suit a fashion model's size
But when I start to tell them,
They think I'm telling lies.
I say,
It's in the reach of my arms
The span of my hips,
The stride of my step,
The curl of my lips.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

I walk into a room
Just as cool as you please,
And to a man,
The fellows stand or
Fall down on their knees.
Then they swarm around me,
A hive of honey bees.
I say,
It's the fire in my eyes,
And the flash of my teeth,
The swing in my waist,
And the joy in my feet.
I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Men themselves have wondered
What they see in me.
They try so much
But they can't touch
My inner mystery.
When I try to show them
They say they still can't see.
I say,
It's in the arch of my back,
The sun of my smile,
The ride of my breasts,
The grace of my style.
I'm a woman

Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Now you understand
Just why my head's not bowed.
I don't shout or jump about
Or have to talk real loud.
When you see me passing
It ought to make you proud.
I say,
It's in the click of my heels,
The bend of my hair,
the palm of my hand,
The need of my care,
'Cause I'm a woman
Phenomenally.
Phenomenal woman,
That's me.

Maya Angelou

Thursday, April 1, 2010

702

I HAVE LOST OVER 22LBS IN 2 WEEKS. I FEEL SO MUCH BETTER AND MY ENERGY LEVEL IS THROUGH THE ROOF. I BEEN TALKING TO MY FAMILY MEMBERS ABOUT JOINING THIS JOURNEY WITH ME AS WELL. MY LONG TERM GOAL IS TO LOSE 524lbs. I KNOW THAT I WILL HAVE TO TAKE IT ONE DAY AT A TIME BECAUSE THIS DID'NT HAPPEN OVERNIGHT. I FEEL THAT OVER THE YEARS I HAD LET MYSELF GO. I HAD ALWAYS PUT EVERYONE BEFORE ME AND I JUST DID NOT TAKE NOTICE TO WHAT I WAS DOING TO MYSELF. I HAVE LYMPH EDEMA LIKE I MENTION IN THE OT HE BLOG. I BEEN TRYING TO GET HELP BUT DUE TO MY SIZE I CAN'T GET THE HELP THAT I NEED FROM THESE DOCTORS AROUND HERE. I LIVE IN A RURAL TOWN IN GA. WE DON'T HAVE A HOSPITAL OR ANYTHING IN THIS LITTLE TOWN. I BEEN TRYING TO GET HELP FOR THE LAST 5 YEARS AND I KEEP GETTING TURN DOWN. I TRY GETTING INTO A LIVE IN CENTER IN OHIO BACK IN 2005. THEY TOLD ME THAT I WAS ACCEPTED BUT COME MARCH OF 2006 I RECEIVED A CALL SAYING THEY WAS NO LONGER ACCEPTING PEOPLE. THAT WAS NOT THE TRUTH I DON'T KNOW WHAT HAPPEN!! THE WOMAN THAT I SPOKE WITH ON THE PHONE SAID THAT SHE WOULD SEND ME A PACKAGE WITH THE NAMES OF OTHER CENTERS THAT COULD HELP ME AND IT STILL HA VENT COME YET.(SAD) I ALSO TRIED TO GET INTO THIS PLACE IN NEW YORK THEY SAID NO BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE HIGH BLOOD PRESSURE,DIABETES OR OTHER DIEASES LIKE THAT. I TOLD HER I DO NOT WANT TO DIE LIKE THIS AND I REALLY NEED YOUR HELP. I'VE EVEN WENT AS FAR AS CALLING A HOSPITAL IN ATLANTA GA AND ASKED THEM TO PUT ME IN THE HOSPITAL TO SAVE MY LIFE. I WAS TOLD THEY CAN NOT DO THAT!!!!! WHEN I HUNG UP THE PHONE I JUST BROKE DOWN AND CRIED BECAUSE IT WAS LIKE THERE IS NO HOPE FOR ME. I'M REALLY THINKING I'M GOING TO DIE IN THIS ROOM. MY MOM CAME IN TO SEE WHAT WAS GOING ON AND SAID BABY DON'T GIVE UP THAT IS NOT IN YOU TO DO THAT. I THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT SHE SAID FOR A FEW MINUTES AND I REPLIED MY QUEEN YOU ARE RIGHT. I WILL BEAT THIS WITHOUT THEIR HELP AND I WILL TELL MY STORY. SO AFTER A CARING PERSON TOLD ME ABOUT MEDIFAST AND WHAT IT HAD DONE FOR A FRIEND OF THEIRS I DIDN'T HESITATE TO CONTACT THEM. I TALK TO A REP ABOUT MY SITUATION BECAUSE I WANTED TO SEE IF MEDIFAST WOULD SPONSOR ME. SHE TOOK DOWN MY INFORMATION AND SAID THAT SHE WILL PASS IT ON TO THE ADD PEOPLE FOR MEDIFAST. I HAVEN'T HEARD FROM THEM YET BUT I CAN NOT KEEP WAITING THEM. THIS IS MY LIFE SO I ORDERED ME A MONTH SUPPLY WHEN I GOT MY SSI AND THAT WAS THE BEST THING I HAVE EVER DONE IN MY LIFE. SO AS OF WEDNESDAY MARCH 17,2010 I TOOK BACK CONTROL OF MY LIFE AND I'M NEVER GOING TO LET ANYTHING KEEP ME FROM WINNING THE BATTLE AGAIN MORBID OBESITY AND LYMPH EDEMA... I HAVE 502 LBS TO GO!!!!STAY SAFE AND BE BLESSED...