NEVER LOSE FAITH

WHEN I WAS COMING UP MY QUEEN(MOM) WOULD ALWAYS TELL ME, "WONDA, YOU ARE MY PHENOMENAL WOMAN". I WOULD JUST SAY OK MY QUEEN.. I WASN'T REALLY UNDERSTANDING WHY SHE WAS SAYING THAT TO ME. NOW I TAKE THIS FROM WHAT SHE WAS SAYING IS.. THAT I AM A EXCEPTIONAL WOMAN. I AM A 32 YEARS OF AGE WOMAN THAT HAVE BEEN ROBBED OF MY LIFE FOR LAST COUPLE OF YEARS. I STAY IN THE HOUSE 24HOURS A DAY WITH NO ONE TO TALK TO OR KNOW WHATS REALLY GOING ON OUTSIDE THESE 4 WALLS. GUESS WHAT? DEALING WITH ALL THAT DIDN'T BEAT ME DOWN I STILL HAVE MY SANITY. WOW!! I HAVE SOME PEOPLE THAT TELL ME THAT THEY COULD NOT HANDLE THIS THE WAY I HAVE. I THINK TO MYSELF YOU MUST NOT HAVE A RELATIONSHIP WITH THE MOST HIGH. I KNOW WHEN PEOPLE COME AROUND THEY EXPECT FOR ME TO BE ALL DEPRESSED AND READY TO GIVE UP ON LIFE; SEE THAT'S WHAT THEY THINK BECAUSE OF WHAT I'M DEALING WITH(MORBID OBESITY AND LYMPH EDEMA). LOOK BEING DEPRESSED IS NOT IN MY SPIRIT! I HAVE FAITH IN THE MOST HIGH AND WHAT HE CAN DO AND WILL DO FOR ME. I KNOW THAT GOD HAVE AND WILL CONTINUE TO TAKE GOOD CARE OF ME SO WHY GET DEPRESSED AND GIVE UP. I KNOW THAT WHEN PEOPLE FIRST MEET ME THEY ARE SHOCKED AND ONCE THEY LEAVE I KNOW THEY ARE THINKING SHE IS NOTHING LIKE WHO I THOUGHT SHE WOULD BE SHE IS MORE. THIS IS WHERE ME BEING THAT PHENOMENAL WOMAN COMES INTO PLAY. I AM AN EXCEPTIONAL WOMAN BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I'M GOING THROUGH ALL OF THIS WITHOUT THE HELP OF ANY DOCTORS I NEVER LOST HOPE. I KNOW THAT AS LONG AS I HAVE GOD IN MY LIFE WHO CAN BE AGAINST ME. HE WILL BE THERE NO MATTER WHAT I CAN COUNT ON HIM. A FEW YEARS AGO WHEN ALL THIS START REALLY TAKING CONTROL OF MY LIFE I HAD MANY FRIENDS SO I THOUGHT. AS TIME WENT BY THOSE SO CALLED FRIENDS DISAPPEARED!!! I WAS THINKING WHAT IS REALLY GOING ON I BEEN KNOWING THESE PEOPLE SINCE MIDDLE SCHOOL OR EVEN BEFORE THAT. SO ONE DAY I WAS GOING THROUGH SOMETHINGS DEALING WITH LYMPH EDEMA. I PICKED UP MY PHONE TO CALL A FRIEND AND REALIZED I HAD NO ONE TO CALL. YES, ITS TRUE THEY ALL TURNED THEIR BACKS ON ME ONCE I GOT DOWN.. I'M NOT GOING TO LIE IT DID HURT AT FIRST THEN I CALLED ON MY TRUE FRIEND THAT WILL NEVER LEAVE MY SIDE AND HE WAS RIGHT THERE. I TOLD MY QUEEN(MOM) THAT ITS GOOD TO KNOW THAT THEY WERE NEVER MY FRIENDS THEY WAS JUST PRETENDERS. AS I GOT OLDER I GOT WISER TO ALL THAT.. PEOPLE ASKED ME LAWONDA HOW YOU FEEL ABOUT THOSE PEOPLE THAT TURN THEIR BACK ON YOU DURING THIS I SAID I STILL LOVE THEM. I JUST WANT EVERYONE TO KNOW THAT THROUGH IT ALL I'M STILL STANDING. SO LIKE THE SONG BY MONICA SAYS" WHATEVER DON'T KILL YOU MAKE YOU STRONGER".(LOL)